I just fixed all the bad links to pictures that I had in here. So for anyone who wasn't able to see the pics of Lucy or Sophie, they are back !

My life has been pretty chaotic lately. To the point where I'm having a hard time knowing what to do with myself.
School has been the last thing on my mind because of it, which is very worisome. I know that I'm doing well enough, but I really need to start doing more work and concentrating on what I'm doing instead of winging it. Winging it is so easy for me, which is very bad because I stop putting effort into school during the middle of the semester. This is something that keeps on happening over and over throughout the semesters and no matter how hard I try I still haven't found a way to fix it.
I honestly believe I have a mild form of ADD. This semester I've even actually thought about talking to my doctor about it and see if there is anything that he can prescribe, but I would feel like a hypocrite taking pills that I claim kids shouldn't be prescribed.
As a future child Psychologist I feel very strongly about ADD medication and their over usage in our culture. I don't believe in prescribing medication to children unless it is absolutely necessary.
Since I know that my form of ADD is mild, I don't feel right about getting a prescription for myself, when I'll want the kids I work with to work on their issues without it.

I've also been very sick this semester, my computer crashed and I couldn't work from home on my papers and such, and last week-end my mother called about being very sick (depression) and having to get admitted into the hospital as soon as she gets her insurance card.
That last one really threw me for a loop since I am very close to my mother. She is now in France, and not being able to be there for her has been extremely hard on me. I haven't been able to concentrate on anything much since she called me to let me know. This week-end I threw myself into house work in order to blank my mind a bit, but the situation is very hard on me at the moment.

I also worked on making an altar again this week-end. Nothing very special or fancy, and most of the things on it nobody would really get, but they all mean something special to me, and keep me connected to people past and present, as well as give me a place to ground myself again.
Here's a pic of it:

There is the cross in the middle, not really representing anything religious, but it is a symbol that I like. The necklace hanging from it was actually given to me by a friend of my grand mothers. It's tiger's claw. I've always loved that necklace and for some reason it makes me feel peaceful.
Then there are the lions strewn a bit everywhere. I'm a Leo and rely very much on my grasp of what it means to be a Leo to explain who I am. Lions are very important to me and while they are not my totem animal, they still play a very important part in my life.
On the side there is a journal for my to write in after I meditate, or anytime I feel the inspiration to.
The pictures of the Crow represents my friend Jonathan, who died last year. He is with me always. Not only that but the Crow has been also a part of my life for a long time now, both as a protector and as a bringer of news.
You can't really tell, but I have different medallions of Saints and Angels, and one of Mary, plus a ring that I was given that are in the middle. All are protection.
On the stuffed lion there is a rosette, an American Indian ornament that I have imbued with protective powers a long time ago, it follows me everywhere. There is also the picture of the American Indian girl walking in the water that inspires me to be myself and become more spiritual.
I have a bottle of water from Lourdes, which is supposed to cure ailments. I use it as a help to prayer at times, but rarely.
There is a chinese toad on the corner, that is told to bring good fortune money wise to the person who has it.
The few images that are on the table at the moment will be put up on the wall very soon and the table will be left free for offerings, most of the time a bowl of water and some flowers. Rarely some food.
There is also a knife, not something that I use at all for anything specific, however I like the energy of the wood and steel and leather together and like having it on that table for some reason.
And there is also the shed of a spider in the corner, which will be joined as soon as I find it in my stuff by the shed of my old snake. Again no particular reason for those, except that they make me feel connected to nature and to animals in general.

I really like my altar at the moment.