I seem to be having a really hard time today with everything.
There is just this could of unhappiness floating around me and enveloping me.
Part of it, I believe is because I wasn't able to attend the photo shoot the Nigel was having today.
After setting up the whole thing, finding the right model, getting our friend Amul to photograph it, getting Nigel to approve of everything... I got called into work and was not able to pitch in with any of the shoot as I was expecting to.
I didn't get to actually meet the model, did not get to have any input on how they were photographing him. Not that I should since this is Nigel's project, but it's always fun for me to shoot off ideas for him to go from, and sometimes we do come up with really cool stuff together. So I was looking forward to participating.
Instead I spent the day watching the little autistic girl having a playdate, which means that I wasn't even really involved with her at all... that and folding the family's laundry. Which I don't mind doing, but it just wasn't the Sunday I was expecting.
And because my student loans haven't gotten in yet, I was not able to say no to the work, because we need the money until then. So a whole bunch of grrrrr for the day, really.
But while all of this was upsetting, it wasn't enough to really put me in such a bad mood. I don't really know what I can do about this. I guess I know that I'm starting school again really soon, and realizing that I didn't get to do half of the things I wanted to accomplish before school started again.
I'm also unable to sleep-in in the mornings anymore for some mysterious reason, and getting very tired all the time.
Basically I need a long sleep in I think tomorrow, and to wake up with a good smile on my face thinking to myself "Hey, I have a wonderful life and do not need to be in a bad mood."
So there.